I guess you can say I’m collectively cool underneath my stoic demeanor. My eyebrows furrow, which gives me a quite a mean look, even though I’m genuinely nice. I furrow my eyebrows because I’m always worried about something. Unfortunately, others will use my furrowed eyebrows as an indication of my hatred for them. Why, I hate situations or myself, never the people unless they are obnoxious.
What I’m saying here is I’m tired of these awful routines called real world or adulthood. Am I too pissed off at myself to even consider these routine jobs?
All I know is I want to go back to school and explore my options again. I am living, I am functioning, and I feel more capable than last year. This capability brings clarity. And dammit, I want to take back the life of clarity and beauty. Sound idealistic?
I am an idealist. I must explore, I must!! I cannot tie myself down to a routine so quickly in my life. I can forego marriage and relationships forever as long as I have my freedom to live and to see my progression!!!
