The mental block
How fast am I moving? Changing for the better? Not fast enough.
I have a mental block that dissipates my thoughts into nothingness. When I think I’ve found the answer to something, an invisible mental block obstructs my thoughts. The block, as if a gentle entity, admonishes me for exploring more beneficial thoughts. Are these mental blocks my insecurities? Are my old insecurities keeping me in check? For instance, just last night I went to be early at 10pm, but I laid in bed with thoughts racing until 1am. I stayed up until 3am to calm my nerves. My anxious thoughts attempted to predict my tomorrows (and consequently, I fulfill them, such as not waking up on time for volunteer work).
I want that mental block gone. Go away so I can progress.
the mental block is a good word for it….and I know it’s an annoying thing and hard to live with. But it will get better….especially concerning the old insecurities….I’m currently busy letting go of them, even though it’s tough…but letting go makes things a lot easier
xoxo